winning

Several weeks ago, a friend asked me to think of as many wins as I could for 2022 and post them. At the time all I could think was “I am still waiting for one.” Yet, the request continued to pop up in my mind. My year has been SO full, why does it feel like I have done absolutely nothing with my life over the last 11 months?

This reminded me of why I began doing Core Value work. Many of you know I used to be the queen of goal setting. I LOVED the practice, and even more so, I LOVED setting and “crushing” massive goals. And what I began to notice was that I spent all of my time working toward something and was missing out on being present for my days. This was that same feeling, what am I doing with my life on a daily basis?!? I decided to revisit my Core Values and create a list of wins in relation to my values, instead of what I felt were straight up wins. So, while I don’t necessarily feel as though I could check a big “win” off a list, I have done well this year.

 

JOY:

-       I am in my 4th semester as a PhD student in a program that was truly created for me. I am clear on my Dissertation topic and method and continue to radically enjoy learning.

-       I watched my teenage son grow into a driven and committed athlete. I got to witness him being proud and excited, as well as learn resilience on the football field.

-       While not as much as we love to, we have still taken time to travel and explore new destinations.

LOVE: (This one could be a novel this year!)

-       I have navigated magical moments and deep healing with a true partner. I am able to be fully expressed and a total weirdo and know I am loved.

-       Oh, and he casually taught me how to build a house, new tool belt, all that good stuff, while having fun. We built a home. Together.

-       I have learned to love what I bring to the world and am proud to share it.

SPIRITUALITY:

-       I am back to living in a place that aligns with my spirit. There is space, and water, and trees, and fresh air, and family. I am grounded here.

-       I continue to practice yoga and walk daily which re-aligns my soul.

-       I am doing deep soul work in my studies, growing as much as I am learning.

INTEGRITY: (This has been a BIG one for me this year!)

-       I am able to say what I need to say without fear in my relationship. My inner and outer dialogue match.

-       I have gotten really honest about my finances and what I need to do to grow and have what I need in the future. And then I have taken steps toward that future.

FREEDOM:

-       Again, finances come up. I am for the first time working with an honest budget. It feels constricting sometimes, yes, but allows for so much freedom big picture.

-       I am truly, deeply happy and nothing feels freer than that.

-       And I cry. A lot. Without shame. Also freeing for my big feely soul *could also be under spirituality*

-       I have invested time and money into rebuilding a business I believe in and love, in order to create abundance for our life and our future.